Past, Present, Future

I haven't touched my Tarot deck for years.

I used to write Tarot diary when I was in SA.

Things really change.

Few days ago I encountered a major problem in my life.

I tried alot ways figuring out what is wrong.

Unfortunately, I couldn't.

An idea just flashed in my mind: why don't I try the Tarot.

So I did, and that is the answer.

Three cards represents the past, the present and the future of my problem.

The meaning of the first card is quite pictorial (hey, I didn't cheat, it's really the card I randomly drew from the stuffled deck).

The second card did represent the present at that time.

I was judging the problem, and like the naked people waking from the coffins, things hiding in my problems were slowly digged out.

The last one, the future of the problem, seemingly a nice one, but it represented the choice I need to make at the times I was facing the problem.

Most of the Tarot websites or books suggest that "the Lover" card means you have to make a major choice which will affect the rest of your life.

And once you have made that choice, you life will never be the same again.

That's what I did today.

It's really a hard choice to make.

A very tough one.

I know it's very very hard for me as well for another person.

But I have to choose that way.

Things change.

My heart doesn't.

I'm sorry.